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I was planning not to write actually today but since i have hard time sleeping lately i decided to write although tired still cannot sleep maybe because of the nap i took earlier.

Update regarding on the trip we’re at purwokerto now, at Titan grandma’s place. We’re about to head out to Dieng after this catching the sunset well it’s the plan because our trip earlier also didn’t go as planned we ended up oversleep so we’re 5 hours behind the schedule but in the end it’s sorted out by itself. That’s probably it regarding the trip.

I’ve been thinking lately, it seems I have a fixation with the past I know i shouldn’t have but something in me seems to clings toward it. I really want to set myself free I don’t want to be defined by the past, I want to be defined and seen as the person I am now not then nor later. My present self is the truest form of myself because it’s real and it’s truly there not a shadow or a farfetched idea, its real.

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So this is the 1st i spent without Twitter, Instagram or Reddit i still spent time on YouTube though to pass the time and the time i spent in YouTube mostly for educational purposes though i watched some Brooklyn Nine-Nine highlights to made myself smile.

Mum woke me up around 8 and I woke up and then slept again but this time in mum’s bedroom so basically i switch the sleeping place then I woke up around 1 PM and then went back to my room and watch some anime on Netflix then I got bored. I went down stairs mum told me to eat and so I did we talked for a while and then i went back to my room but this time I turned on my laptop for no apparent reason and just sit in front of it for a while deciding what to do and finally settled on clicking STAR WARS BATTLEFRONT II Icon and play online matches until around 7, mum called me she said she’ll go outside with dad and their friends and asked me if I’ll join them or not and i politely refused their offer and chose to stay at home. I continued play for a bit and then exit the game then chose another game and it is Stardew Valley I played continuously until mum and dad got home and got me food so i ate with them talked about stuff and I told them Im gonna go tonight because Titan called me earlier that we’re going to ikrar’s place and head out to Dieng first thing in the morning. Yep, we’re going on a trip again though this time titho will not joining us but there’s a possibility that debul will join us.

Right now I’m on ikrar’s bed typing on my phone’s notes, i didn’t bring my laptop obviously it’s heavy. This’ll be the first holiday without uploading stuff online other than this of course. We’ll probably gonna go around 5 ish in the morning and head to either boyolali or purwokerto first, we took quite a big gamble on this trip. I don’t know if I will upload this tonight or after the trip is over I haven’t decided yet. I’ll probably will write a lot or type, because i don’t i have may things to do while on the road i may have brought my camera this time but it’s gonna be a long journey and it’s not like camera have many interesting features other than taking videos and pictures.

About the title i know it’s not the first post but it is the first day without socmed things yesterday was day zero today was day one. Although it’s 2PM right now and I don’t want to get very technical but you get the point. Maybe.

I haven’t really explored much thought like i wanted to, i really want to materialize my thoughts it’s not exactly an easy things to do it’s like expressing feelings I don’t know about you lot but it’s really hard for me to get in touch with my own feelings but that’s a topic for another day.

It’s almost 3 now and i also haven’t decided if want to go sleep or not, it’s really a tough decision with this many mosquitos biting around and i still have plenty of energy. It’s not that i had the most productive day, maybe I’ll sleep later on what i know is im gonna end this note here. Cheers.

Hey, y’all don’t have to know a lot about me i’m a film student and currently lost in space so i decided to became a space cowboy and there’s no cow in space so maybe i’m just a space boy but I’ll find cow eventually so i’m gonna stick with space cowboy for now.

I’m on my 20’s now, early though. I’m a nerd, I read a lot of comicbooks and do enjoy comicbook movies. I loves watching movies especially in theater. I enjoy listening to music but I don’t have any talent whatsoever in music, I suck at it. I occasionally draw, it’s not really that good because I still don’t have an artstyle and there are a lots of people whose waaaay better than I am, so there’s lotsa stuff to learn. this is not the first time blogging, I’ve done it in the past and it’s embarrassing really, because I was in Junior High at the time.

one more thing, I’m broke.

I’m probably not gonna post a lot because i’m practically lost at sea of thought, too many thoughts on my mind yet I don’t know how to express it. So maybe one thought at a time would help me.

The content on this blog will be random, sometimes I’m just gonna talk about my personal thought and experiences, or maybe just ranting. Sometimes I’m gonna write film review or an essay about it. this blog won’t be neatly organized.

There’s gonna be a blog in Bahasa and in English or maybe a both of them, like I said its gonna be messy